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| hahahaha! finally i'm on9 again!!!
2 good news today. First of all...
MY ROOM'S FINISHED!!!
it is absolutely gorgeous. but tonite i'm still staying at my grandma's. I'll try to take a picture and put it up l8er. it's all white, and it's got all new furiture, the carpet's off and the walls are re-painted.
2ndly...
it's the last month i'm having braces!!
after exam, they'll take it off and I'm off to retainers. it's only been SEVEN months.... don't u think it's a miracle? last month they were still telling me that i've got another year or a half to go, and like suddenly i'm done. Now i really believe that i'm gullible.
Anyway... today's a good day. and tmr's MY B-DAY!! wakakaka. hehhe. i'm sure that everyone will rmb it cuz i've been broadcasting it since last month. well, u know, i like to sure my happiness (and the presentz)...
ok. dat's about it. it's kinda late now and i gotta get to my grandma's place sooner cuz i'm hungry and i HAF TO WORK.
Good nite. | | |
| One of those entries you-don't-haf-2-read...
From one to another. Come on. I'm not that kinda person. I'm disappointed- u know I'm not the typa person who'd do that kinda thing. If I were i wouldn't even BE there. COME ON!! I'm really sorry, but u haf to be to learn independence, u can't juz assume that u can rely on other ppl. You can't guarrentee to yourself that ppl will save your life. There's something I want to say for a long time: COME ON!! it's not anyone else's fault if you are not cared, it's not anyone else's fault if you lose YOUR trust. Before complaining, haf you asked yourself how much YOU have contributed? Haf u asked yourself how much you've cared, how far you've been responsible to wut you've promised? Sometimes it's hard to measure. Sometimes, it's called sacrificing. As time passes, it's better to give more, care more, sacrifice more than everyone else, than to demand more from other ppl and not be able to return back. If you don't try to realise this point, you don't even qualify to *take*. You're not the centre of the universe. Gota be tougher than this. COME ON!! Fighting for yourself shows strength, demanding for protection proves weak. I know I cannot get caught up by some little stumbling stone. It's hard, but I have to learn, just like everyone else. We might not get to the top, but at least we're struggling for a chance. Stop making things complicated for everyone, especially when it's none of your business. COME ON!!Stop trying to pull ppl apart, it's mean, you're not showing support. There's a difference between supporting a friend and spoiling a friend. COME ON!! Stop giving yourself excuses, face your weakness eye to eye and battle it down. Trying to escape shows more stupidity. Everyone else knows what the reality is. COME ON!! Get up grip! Stop the self-pitying! Nothing's upsetting you apart from yourself. Think of all the other unfortunate ppl. You're the last person who should be complaining. We're not in heaven at the moment, consider yourself lucky, to be able to suffer so little. | | |
| Today after skool, i went to the libruary w/ Josie. Tried to revise Geo + do the work but ultimately fell asleep... cuz it was juz so boring. As soon as I woke up, Josie was like, "shall we go now?" therefore i didn't actually do so much.
But anyway. After Josie and I seperated, I walked around for a while pointlessly around the harbour. The weather was not particularly pleasant, but standing next to the sea juz automaticly makes me more optimistic. I mean, it's a blessing to have a harbour snap in the middle of the city, don't you think? Though it's getting narrower year by year and contaminated day by day, at least it's still there. And why is having a harbour good...? well, i dunno. Well, I never thought it was something special, but it's just not something you get in every city in the world right? ppl FIGHT for portz. I mean, sometimes I imagine that, if i can just drop into the sea and not care about anything, i can end up in Taiwan or Japan or Korea or somewhere else along the coast. It's about the crazy possibilities.
Okay, i know this is a realli random post.
But suddenly today i'm juz happy again. Not being trapped in misery is good. There's sometimez no reason to moodz. It's fascinating how you actually haf less control to your emotions than you think. | | |
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changed new headline picz. SKY and CLOUDZ!! (to match my ambtion of being a pilot) lol. Well, not really. I really really like blue skiez.
speaking of skies, 2day when i woke up i found myself trapped in Yellow storm signal. There was thunder. I thought we wouldn't need to go to skool, which would be a blessing cuz i was unprepared for Mathz and Hist. test. But newayz. I had to stand outside in the rain, while the bus was late, with an unbrella, UNDER A TREE, reading my revision guide (which i'm sorry to say, was useless).
Math was crap. It was harder than the last one, my markz definitely shooting straight dOwN. There were tricky questionz even in the A section. The worst part was, i couldn't do the last question which worthed 10 markz. (11 actually, but i managed to fill something in for the first part). Haha. I don wanna guess what mark i'll get.
Apart from dat, everythingz ok. Aparently I need 2 play the piano performance this June. And I really wonder how that's gonna happen. It means two pieces, in front of i-dunno-how-many people, without making any mistakes atoll. OMG. from next month on there are so many impossible taskz. The whole exam week is mission-impossible. History and Geo, both from 0-10...that's like about 500000 piecez of information to rmb. How intellectual will i become after sitting through the whole exam week?? Hey, do we get study leavez?? (well... like Jozie would say, only I would complain about hafing too much work)
Challenge of being 16. Maybe I should consider not celebrating this b-day, since there's nothing to celebrate about...
Anyway. Glad that tests of this week is finished. *phewf* | | |
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